Uni Life Part 1 - Unsettling Times

I think the title of this post pretty much sums up wat i wana say ba.

Uni life, rite now, sucks.

who the heck said tt life wld get better than when in jc. okay, mayb it will be true as it gets along. but rite now, i only wished tt time can turn back n stop in jc/secondary sch period.

(For ppl who can't/dun like to read long n wordy stuff, i suggest u close this window n go do some other more productive stuff ba. for i foresee this'll b a rather long-winded one.)

Lotsa stuff happened recently. reali a lot. school, friends, fam, etc etc. it suddenly seems like alot of ppl are going thru a tough patch of life at this time. and sometimes, its hard to be there for ppl when i can hardly be there for myself. let alone finding ppl. haizZz.

but then again, even if there are ppl here w me, i also dunoe wat to say or do. (For this i attribute it to the nature of my horoscope: Scorpios tend to find it tough to open up to others. So its not just me. hah. P.S. i noe im findin excuse =P)

shant bore u poor readers with the details of my sorrow, but in short, i just think that 24hrs a dae is so not enuf. so many tings, so lil time.

come to tink of it, i used to deal w stress relatively well last time. or at least i think i did. but now, times are different. i've changed, n its not within my control. what am i to do? how am i to do?

tonnes of presentations to prepare, ever-piling tutes to do, never-ending activities going on, and dear friends who just need a listening ear, family who need my time n concern. i wish i can be there for everyting n complete everyting. but if i am unsatisfying in anyway, pls forgive me, i am tryin the best i can. i reali am.

and the one important person to me, canot be here with me.

its saddening.

but i noe u have ur own share of things to deal w. and i may not have been able to be there w u too.

i hope tt tings will work out soon.

hang in there.

Lots of stuff in my head now. actually its more like every nite. i dint tot i wld say this, but its hard to adapt to a new environment. there are times when things look rosy n cheery, there are times when its like a stormy sea.

tossing n turning everynite, thinking of every thing n (almost) every ppl.

many more things to say. yet not sure if it can/shl be said here. honestly i hardly check back here often myself. but

i hav lost track of who comes here animore.

if u've read thus far, be a dear fren, and leave me ur name/nick on the tag?

Thanks

i seem to have grown more selfish. in thots per-say. hardly thinking of wat/how others may feel, or their reasons behind things they do/say.

but i am making it a pt to change. believe me i am. do remind me along the way when i do stray off ya.

Henceforth i shall set a few tings to stick to. (Think its not bad an idea to learn from Earl, frm the sitcom/show My Name is Earl. to list out stuff to correct/undo and work my way through the whole list.)

1. be more sensitive to the ppl ard me

2. try to venture more into an issue tt may seem simple, there may be more than meets the eye, or looking at things from another angle, rather than simply shooting off my head w/o thinking

3. be nice to ppl ard me

4. change my stubborness n lousyness

5. be less distracted by the computer

i shall start by focusing on the 5th point haha. aniw time now is 3.15am (07 sept 2006, thur)

Its time for bed. tho i feel pretty awake now. lucky tml no lesson. hopefully can catch up on some tutes. n to all, i will try my best to work thru everyting. but one at a time, or i CMI la.

wish me luck

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Actually hor, i dun tink this is v accurate hahaha