The start of something new..

Its a strange, weird, interesting, anticipating, exhilarating and sweet feeling..

I do hope that something will come out of it eventually.

Looking forward to each and everyday, with you by my side.

Missing euuu... tho u're actually just near by, seeing me type this -_-..

I am so not supposed to be here at this time =X

but slightly troubled. by a few things..

first thing first.

I almost almost got into accident todae (ie 20 feb 2008, wed)

(im still recovering fr a state of shock.. .. ..)

There was this slight jam on PIE this morning when i was rushing down to aljunied for my project interview. I was on the rightmost lane and near Stevens Rd exit, the front cars kept braking on and off. then suddenly the front car came to a sudden total stop! i cldnt brake in time so my bonnet kissed his car back alil. LUCKILY i wasnt travelling fast n did managed to brake enough such that there wasnt any dents/marks tho we did bumped. the driver was an Indian guy and we both stopped n came out of the car to check in the middle of PIE on the rightmost lane. i somehow think that my semi formal dressing "helped" abit, as in I actually expected him to hurl/scold/yell or something you mei you. but thank gdness there wasnt anything n we both juz drove on after that. I cant rember his full car plate no now, but its S__ 6111 U. and just for fun i just went to check todae's 4D results. and there's a 6119 in the consolation nos haha.

aniw. im really really sorry to zham ur brakes todae. n yesh i'll try try not to think abt this incident anymore. but its abit tough not to =X

Moving on.

Things are changing. People are changing. Its a true but sad fact.

People who used to be close, aint that close anymore.

I do zhong shi my friends alot if anyone havent alr knew. but. things/people have changed so much that i cant be there for someone anymore no matter how hard i try. mayb its bcoz i really havnt been paying attention/spending time catching up with u since u got back. n no time is no doubt a lousy excuse. for that, i'm really sorry. but its no doubt that alot of things have changed. and i cant seem to do anything abt it. haiz.



despite the fact that i believe No Time is a terrible excuse, at this moment i seriously have got many many things on hand to do. i think i shl get back to studying for tml's 214 test. Communication Mgmt Strategies. i like the tcher alot. but i dun quite like the syllabus/content =S


oh one last thing while im at it.

much as it is very very nice to be taken care of, i still wld like to maintain a little bit of independence on my own. i hav all along been fending for myself n sometimes even for ppl ard me. so it is not that easy/comfortable to suddenly drop all these fences n have almost everything taken care of for me le. feels weird... and i feel like im turning into a lazy pig soon haha.

bu yao tai guo cong wo ba.. wo hui bu xi guan de.
hai you, ru guo you yi tian ni bu zai wo shen bian, na wo zhe me ban?


*disclaimer: the author is in state of half shock and emo and a mixture of many emotions when writing these, so pls try not to take anything seriouslly ya =)*

8pm 07 Feb 2008 (Thu)

Elloz. First and foremost,



GONG XI FA CAI!



Yup, its the season of red packets again haha. but this year, my paternal side has sadly "stopped" the tradition of gathering tog on cny le. but nonetheless, my maternal side was happening too haha.



this year's ang bao collection has hit an all time low. this may be the lowest ever =X

and of all times this also happens to be my most-broke period =S



aniw. school is starting to get bz yet again. so other than academic n DnD stuff, i seriously have no xtra time le. except for the occasional working sessions in school..



1am 08 Feb 2008
(recovering fr a two hour phone convo..)

I'm serious when i say im easily influenced by my frenz or juz ppl around me in general. now i dunoe what/how to think/react. or rather who to believe more. i really dun. are guys naturally insensitive creatures? or do they just hide stuff thinking that if they dun acknowledge it then it isnt there? do they really believe that or is it juz an easy way out?

And todae i finally got a full blast of feeling SUPER OLD. my gawd.

Half the things that i say/going to say, i've repeated at least once in this one week alone. to diff people, at diff times. most of them are my life experience, and i really dun mean to nag/sound "jaded" you mei you. i really do mean well and i hope u can take something out fr my life experiences ba. its like "been there, done that. it hurts. so pls dun take after me ie bu yao ta wo de hou chen". but of coz its eventually up to u to decide ba. and its easier said than done. it alwaes does. but it'll do u gd trust me =)

ok aniw the above can be for the general public la. so pls do not kill me kk =)

and no u cant strangle me either. i say NnNoOoOOOooooo!!

haha. kk time to get off the blog le lar =X

ciaoz!

btw i think im sick. throat dun feel gd. n my nose is like an uncontrolled tap. non-stop flowing =S
rahs.